Your eyes scream obscenities at me.
What did I ever do to you?
What did-
Shut up, boy.
Shut UP, boy.
Your smoke lays heavily in the air,
But it’s not nearly as thick as your malice.
Do I really deserve this?
Do I really-
Shut up, boy.
I said shut UP, boy.

I… I’m dirty
And I’m dingy
I disgust me
And a mat in the corner of a room used for everything is all mine
You can’t take that away,
Please don’t take it away

There’s maggots on the floor
And the fleas keep biting me
Please God, don’t make me stay
Are you listening as I pray?

It hurts because you won’t help.
You won’t even try.
Stand up,
Be a man,
Please, save me, it’s what you’re here for!
Don’t. Let her. Hurt me. Anymore.

So many maggots on the floor,
So many fleas, they keep biting me

Wait, where did you go?
I… can’t do this.
Not alone.
No, who’s going to hold it back now!?
Please, don’t leave me!
It’s alive, It’s a beast and it’s ready for a feast

What did I ever do to you?
Do I really deserve-
Shut UP, boy.

There’s a toilet with no water, only shit;
The walls are peeling and the ceiling is falling down and
They’re crying and she’s screaming
And beating and smoking and drinking and
I’m sobbing and shaking and hiding and
SAVE ME.
Where did you go?
I’m so, so young, I cannot do this alone

I can’t weep any more if I tried.
I’m empty and hollow,
And my mind is gone before I’m thirteen.
The malice has seeped into me and I’ve lost a vital human part;
My heart.
Why? Why why why?
Don’t ask boy, you won’t receive.
No friends, boy.
Stay here, boy.
Your name?
Boy.
For the love of God,
Someone shoot me in my face,
I cannot bare another day.

Turquoise irises with sleep-smudges beneath
I’m cracking from the inside out;
Hide it all away,
The terror,
The shame.
There are no alternatives when every day you wake and fear for your life.
What does it look like when this nameless thing smiles?
He seems alright to me, he just looks tired.

We’re from child protective services.
Hope?
Everything seems to be in order here, sorry to have bothered you.
Vomit.

Maggots
Fleas
Shit
Screams
So. Many. Screams.

Perpetual, a sickening sorrow consumes me
A thick black sludge, sin?
It’s forming between my teeth
I don’t think I’m safe here
Please… let me leave.

So much hate and so much remorse,
So much jealousy contained in my clockwork heart.
There’s no killing this thing,
Constructed from terror and sadness,
Of wrath and shame;

Fair warning.
I’m damaged,
I’m deranged,
And I’m now I’m looking to kill my pain.